What is more important, what society thinks a word means or what how the individual defines it? plus stuff

February 24, 2011 at 8:02 pm (Uncategorized)

Hello, welcome, I have a question,

What is more important, what society thinks a word means or what how the individual defines it? That is possibly the question that brought you here. I’m not sure what else could have brought you here, but please, tell me if it was something else. Well, haha! I will be giving my opinion at the end! You will need to read about random stuff first! or I guess you could scroll…but no! You can’t cos I say and it’s my blog so that counts! Ah whatever.

My blog is written awkwardly. I edit quite a lot, trying to implement the principles I learned at uni about writing. I’m thinking I shouldn’t do that so much. I should just write and enjoy doing that. I considered a word limit for about 1 minute, but I know I couldn’t come up with a number that I would find acceptable. All of that is why it takes so long for me to post, and I don’t like that. So now I hope to just try and write. It won’t always happen, but I want to try and post more for sure. 

I mentioned last time I have recently discovered I had a number of allergies. Technically they are food intolerances, but people understand what allergies are better so it can just be easier to call them that. So, my list of allergies:
Cow’s milk
And a proper allergy to dust mites.
Nice list isn’t it. It really sucks. Beef and potatoes! They are like my favourite foods! And I have always loved milk 😦 but I’m dealing with it. Potatoes and milk are hardest to overcome. I haven’t been satisfied with the substitutes. I can’t get over the sweetness in the sweet potatoes and I have never liked soy milk. Goat’s milk is too expensive to try. $4 for a litre! Ugh. I already have expensive, yeast- free bread. At least I can have a little bit sometimes.

So my birthday happened. It was a whole heap of fun 🙂 I sang at church in the morning and that was great. Then when Bec got home we went to the Mana Bar. I wore my new Decepticons shirt while Bec wore the Autobots one. The staff at the Mana Bar are truly amazing. They loved the shirts and that on top of that it was my birthday. My Tourette’s went largely, gloriously unnoticed, and at points even had fun with. I got free drinks and I got to chat to Yug. By that time thought I’d had quite enough to drink, and babbled about my boyfriend who he knows, but more about him later 😉 but at the end of the night it was sad, I had a Tourette’s tic and dropped my maccas cheeseburger! 😥 

Christmas and New Years happened too. There were meh, just meh. Nice but not huge, which is good some years really, like everyone else I spoke to about it.

Brisbane had a flood too. I was fortunate that, tho I am close, I was relatively unaffected. But as the huge weather/natural disaster nut I apparently am, I was watching all the footage. It was very surreal. I feel that my reaction was bizarre. I didn’t feel so bad, maybe because it was something people could be quite prepared for, while it would devastate property. I hope it doesn’t mean I’m a bad person 😦

Yes so, I have a boyfriend now, 100%, bona fide, anything else that means totally real, boyfriend. And he’s great. He’s a gamer, music lover and a few other wonderful things but most importantly for me; he’s a Christian. He wants to be so much for me, and I to him, it’s quite wonderfully scary. And at times just scary. But that he wants to do anything for me at all is enough for me now. I know things can change in all aspects, and who knows what will happen, but regardless of what happens he is an awesome guy, almost unbelievable. We both can’t believe what we have found. Thing is he lives in Adelaide. So I’m moving. He isn’t the only reason I’m going, but I like to think it’s a pretty decent reason in any case.

I still have no career ideas. It’s stupid, and I probably haven’t sat and thought about it enough, but yeah. Meh. I hope the move might help a bit.

Have you heard of enneagrams? It’s a personality test and I recently looked at where I fit in this. Now I don’t fully agree with personality tests but I see their usefulness and I do find them interesting. From what I can tell I am a type 6. Basically what that means is I am loyal but fearful. I want to be secure but this security must be tested and, in a way, is always uncertain. These things I can identify with very much. If you really want to know more look it up. If I type the rest I’m sure it will just sound like I’m looking for sympathy.

Finally, the question, what is more important, what society thinks a word means or what how the individual defines it? Well, my answer is this. It is important what society thinks, and I think this is it because it is all about communication. The individual wants to communicate with society; it must be in a way for society to understand. If not communication fails, unless that was somehow the aim. Of course, different societies have different ways of defining words, but that’s just getting tricky. As a purely binary question, I’d say society.

I guess the problem is how do we ensure that something means the same to everyone? I consider this an impossibility.




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What happened to Uni 2010

November 18, 2010 at 8:07 pm (Uncategorized) ()

Hi everyone,


So, yet again another post and lots of change has happened. First and arguably the biggest is that uni is finished! However, I didn’t finish my degree 😦. I deferred. 


I was placed at a great school close to me but I think I just stressed out to much. I was having trouble working on lesson plans and felt physically ill. I just couldn’t get my mind to focus on what I needed to do. I didn’t want to let anyone down, especially the teachers who I was so thankful for letting me into their classrooms and the kids for putting up with me. I felt bad to because I knew other people who thought they felt the same, was I just not strong enough? Surely I can do anything. Maybe I didn’t try hard enough, or I didn’t ask for enough help. Is it that I am too selfish? Unable to put away little things that I wanted to do? Letting myself get distracted? I would say one of these things distracting me was quite significant but idk, maybe it could have waited? Bah.


Another thing that had been weighing on me was that I may have started for the wrong reasons. In my mind it isn’t why you start that is most important, but why you keep going. I think I had been struggling to find that reason and I just wasn’t really having fun. I think there was still potential for me to have fun, but it just hadn’t happened at that point when I felt I needed to make my decision.


I began to form the view that I need to learn how to live with normal stresses of life before adding stuff like the stresses of teaching. This might seem a little strange to some (like my dad) but here is my thinking. I will always have a house, a job, probably a car and family and all the stresses that come with that. I want to be able to figure out how to do those basic things before I deal with a highly involved job like teaching, which is hard and often thankless.


Another part of my reasoning is its impact on my Christian life. From the start I never really had a peace that it was the will of God. On a daily level I didn’t get time in the Word and in prayer like I knew I needed to be. It is the priority in my life and not being able to do what I consider to be the basics of my faith really upset me.


In the end I was surprised at how well everyone took my decision and how supportive they were. My dad was having issues of his own and didn’t take it all well. Because of that he said some hurtful things but that is all I will say on that. I am so thankful for all the people who would tell me about the courage it took to make my decision and that it was a good step.


I’m not sure what I will do now, or if I will even go back. It’s time to think a bit about what I will do next.


So, after that massive piece of info, I also got my first massage ever. Different experience that’s for sure. I wonderful woman from church offered to do it for me so I took the chance. It was like an all over massage and it was amazing. As it was my first time I had trouble relaxing, even when I managed it I was so tense! Up around my shoulders especially. When she was massaging the worst pain was in my shoulders, elbows and my lower inner thighs. And she was only giving me a relaxing massage! Since the experience different parts of my body have been making their present known. First were my arms when I went to roll over. They felt heavy and moved weirdly. Then my left knee was sore driving home which was uncomfortable. While I was trying to sleep my back and hips kinda gave me issues and the next day  my hips were a bit strange, but I think that’s partly because my computer chair sux. My left shoulder was a bit painful sometimes too.  UPDATE:  I actually have a bruise on my shoulder!



Finally, emerging news on the relationship front. First you will need some back-story. Because I was busy, and just plain forgot…somehow, I went to a wedding in July. It was interstate and I had lots of fun and met a lot of great people. One person in particular seemed to think I was interesting to, for some reason. But I came back to my state expecting to hear nothing more about it. Shock horror he actually texted me! Well I never. We started to chat online and I set out with the intention of being a friend and a friend only. I can’t explain how things changed but we are at a stage now where, once we get some stuff sorted out, we will be together :D. I say this with a regrettable grain of salt as I am still kinda scared about it all and I guess I’m still guarding myself a bit from potential hurt. But as with most things time will tell.


Oh yeah, and I went to that allergist and found I’m allergic to a bunch of stuff. I hope to post that experience later.


Ha, so that’s been my life for the last little bit. Later 😉



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A collections of thoughts and discoveries

August 14, 2010 at 1:43 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , )

Hi everyone,

As usually this has taken quite a while. With uni prac and everything I couldn’t get to writing. But, here it is now 😀

Prac was really hard for me. The school was fine, I just need to learn a LOT. My Tourette’s wasn’t an issue most of the time, apart from my prac teacher asking about it, but that was ok 😛 But I was so exhausted. One thing I started to think about at that time was teaching vs. tutoring. I was quite good at tutoring. Both are unique, but is there one that is better?

With teaching you are teaching a group, so there is less need to employ teachers. But then the risk is that the teacher can’t cater to all the kids needs. With tutoring you can make smaller groups and cater to different needs better, but it costs money to employ those teachers. Not to mention infrastructure. But how does it prepare them for life? Society is very bad at catering for individual need, should school be a place they learn this and the ways they can adapt? Or should they get that specialised teaching. That way teachers can make sure students know the basics they need to know to live in the world and get the best skills to start with, then they can learn to adapt. And perhaps some kids learn better in a group that individually. Maybe it helps them learn the importance of diversity? Which ever is ultimately better, I think nothing will change. Problems concerning infrastructure, money, teacher training, would make it tricky to change to tutoring despite any evidence in favour of it. Still, an interesting thought.    

Next topic, Eurovision. This was held a loong time ago now, but I still want to mention it. I worked the night of the actual Eurovision 😦 but I know about how it kinda went down. My song “Eastern European Funk” didn’t win, but I was happy with the winner “Satellite” by Lena link.


 Mr God didn’t make it to the finals 😦 but I guess that’s really is a good thing. The other thing about this year is it wasn’t as crazy as previous years. Whether it’s the economic situation or something else, it’s sad the craziness was lacking.   

Something that is craziness is my addiction to tgwtg (http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/) I love the Nostalgia Critic, Nostalgia Chick, Marzgurl, Todd in the Shadows and no doubt I will love more, but I want to tell you about Linkara.

He does these amazing reviews of comic books and stuff. Now, I’ve never really read comic books because I’m a stickler for continuity and there is A LOT in comic books. But his reviews are about the bad comics, and it’s wonderful. He likes many things I do too, Dr Who, MST3K, Power Rangers& Monty Python. I stumbled across him on tgwtg through his Power Rangers season analyses. I love them so much; critical analysis is so fun, especially on pop culture and something people wouldn’t expect. Something else I find intriguing, apparently he’s a Christian! I have found that he is non denominational, but that’s as much as I was willing to ask (yes I emailed him :P) I still wonder if a Christian should spend his time in such a way tho. 

As for my own Power Rangers project, I still don’t have pics for you of the garage. 😦 But my sister and I have started buying merch. Being in Oz I have discovered we suck for pr merch. Rpm merch only came out about July, ages after the series finished airing. Before that all I could find was an over drive morpher O.o. as of now we haven’t seen summer’s figurine let alone the boom twins, but we have a normal morpher, normal figures for blue red and black, and a stranger one for green. We have seen some mini zord things, but because they had these annoying little zords that weren’t in the series, and we needed to keep our money, we didn’t get them. I find it so annoying to get the red cell we have to but the megazord 😡

In relation to this I have been wondering; is it possible to be a geek/nerd and a Christian? I know geeks and nerds aren’t the same thing, but I think the principle applies to both, and to any enthusiasts of a specific thing, but there are specific issues associated with geekery that I want to explore. I will work on this for a later post, but just thought I’d mention it.

On a serious note, Dad had a bad accident the other day. He’s been thinking a lot about his own mortality and the people he misses too. He’s saying he’ll give up his current job too, somehow I believe him this time. Its times like this I am sadden more for him; he still hasn’t fully admitted he sees the work of God in his life. He wasn’t injured in the crash (apart from whiplash) and apparently, according to the police, it’s lucky he wasn’t much worse. Luck had nothing to do with it tho. 

Well, that’s enough for now, I’d better go do uni assignments *rolls eyes* 


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Time effects some stuff

May 15, 2010 at 5:18 pm (Uncategorized) ()

Hi everyone,

This will be a long post. I have been planning since May 1st.  

Anyway, I’ll start with my first week of school 🙂 it was quite good. My teacher is very relaxed. Im worried I wont get the support I want, but I am trusting he will give me the support I need. I know I may well want more support than I need. But the boys are mostly good, I think have a few favourites, but I wont be giving them any different treatment, and I certainly don’t think to others in anyway lack potential or anything. I want to try to give all the boys equal attention, and make them all feel valued, even the quiet ones.   

Heres a thought I had the other day: why do we need arch support? I keep seeing shoe ads about it, but 2000 yrs ago I’m sure they didn’t have it, and they were fine. And I know our feet haven’t changed since then.

I know we can only know a small fraction of what there is to learn in this world, but just how small that is has been dawning on me in the last few weeks. There is so much we can’t know! How do we live knowing so little, I’m getting the feeling there is so many little things that, if we knew them, would make our lives so much better. But we don’t know cos we can’t. It humbles me.

I’m going to talk about my faith here, so yeah. I know I can’t stop you making comments about it, but please respect that this is what I believe.

Anyway, the knowledge thing really bothers me as a Christian who is still learning. I don’t hav all the answers yet and will get things wrong. That in itself annoys me, and while I know I will never get it all right, just how much I will get wrong is almost overwhelming. It makes me realise again just how much God guides my life.

I feel the same about this whole husband thing. Sometimes tho I think its easier to believe it wont happen than to wait for someone. I know im probably not ready for a husband but my brain (or is that heart) wont let it go. I keep second guessing. I think this best comes across if you understand my thought process. It goes like this; ok, so, I am attracted to nerds so I will marry a jock. And I am clumsy so my husband won’t be. but maybe we will be united by nerdy clumsiness. Hmmm. And so it continues like that.  I want and need to stop it! He will be as God intends and that is that! I need to stop trying to figure it out like some bad telemovie or something! Even if life can feel like that it doesn’t mean I can predict it using tropes and clichés! Ooh my brain can be so annoying sometimes.

My sis moved out the other week. I miss her.

There is a bit potential that my friend is leaving. As in working overseas. I need to get used to it. I think I might be distancing myself partly due to it, I hope he doesn’t think I’m hating him for other reasons. I wonder what will happen to our friendship. It scares me. He doesn’t keep in touch well. And humans forget. 

I have been thinking about globalisation recently, thanks to kpop and my discovery of ‘Die Roten Punkte’. They are apparently German but I’m suspicious, but my point remains the same. LINK!


Part of the attraction is that they are from another country and the cultural difference is interesting. But with my ability to access their culture they also hav access to mine. Will it blend? Will it all become unrecognisable?

I have also been listening to old recordings, 1950’s stuff. We have a lot of Pianola rolls and I’m trying to find recordings of all the songs. Here is one of my faves. LINK!   


I think it describes me well 😛

well, cya


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Stickers and obscurity

April 21, 2010 at 10:04 pm (Uncategorized) ()

Hi everyone,

Is it that time already? Another blog post? Oh alright then.

I went a bit crazy today, I bought some stickers 😛 I wasn’t even looking, but it struck me; I’m in a school in less than a week, I need resources. So my first thing is stickers 🙂 I hope the students like ‘em. I quite happy I found pirate ones, and I figure I can say ninja ones are too sneaky 😛

Oh yeah, I’m going to *drum roll* Anglican Church Grammar School! Otherwise known as Churchie. LINK!


Its completely different to my high school, chalk and cheese, so im a bit intimidated. Rich might not be the word, higher socio-economic definitely, and the NAPLAN scores are much higher! It’s also all boys, so being a short, sort of quite girl is going to be, well, a huge learning curve.

On a similar note, women’s bible study is almost finished. We have been learning about covenant. It has been amazing. For me it hasn’t so much been ‘ah-ha!’ moments, more ‘oh yeah, of course’ reactions. It’s great to see how it all fits.

Ha, and a friend pointed something out to me the other day; I like obscure things. It got me wondering why that is. I think the best example of the craziness of it is my new found love of Korean pop. How is it different from pop from America, England and Australia? Surely there’s more to it than my ignorance of the lyrics and their meaning. Is it simply cos it’s from another country?

I stared wondering about all the things I like. Do I simply think these things deserve to be remembered, and who else will but me? do I get a kick out of knowing things other ppl don’t? or am I trying to champion the case of these because they are, idk, have some unrecognised brilliance that will only be discovered after I’m even dead. Like they are some kind of Renaissance painter. I have no answer, but I have something else to think about.

What else has happened? Um, my uncle came up from Adelaide, which was nice. Another friend left for America for 4 months, which was sad. Uni hasn’t been too bad either.

Ha, I better go. Nite


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Supanova 2010!

April 14, 2010 at 12:13 pm (Uncategorized)

Ok, finally, the post about my big weekend. So firstly, there was an overdue assignment, supanova, 2 birthdays and karaoke. Now I have already talked about karaoke, so I will move on.

First birthday: was nice, really late night but great, not much too really say, except the place was really nice but a bit expensive, and the company was fun.

Next: Supanova! Was up at 6 to be there by 8 for the open at 10. When we got in line we were just around the corner. By 10 the line was down the street, across the road, around another corner and out of sight. Apparently both lines were like that O.o

Anyway, while we were in line we saw many interesting cosplays and things. Some of the highlights included standing next to a shy guy and a Dr Mario, seeing an Eva (Neon Genesis) and seeing a Stormtrooper get a hug from a free hugs guy.

Once we got in there were many amazing cosplay costumes. Some of my highlights were: the 5th Doctor, members of the Stargate team, no face from spirited away, various Ghostbusters, Dark Magician Girl, a group of pokemon (including Jigglypuff, Charmander, Squirtle, Cubone and Pikachu)  Yugi, Pegusus, Nick the Mysic Force Red Ranger (luv that guy!) Shaun from Shaun of the Dead and some guys dressed in Steam punk.

Ha, so we wandered around and did some shopping, got chased by a dalek and lived, and I got caught in the crowd in between Pikachu and Squirtle.   

The main attraction for me is the cosplay. Ppl are so passionate and they go to such lengths to recreate what can seem like an impossible costume. I’m particularly impressed when ppl choose something unusual or unexpected. I’m just annoyed I don’t know them all.

So anyway, first was the madman national comp. they were all great, and the winner was amazing, but one guy stood out. William and his bike. It was hilarious, he and the host kept bouncing off each other and it was great 🙂

Then they had technical difficulties, ugh. So they played us youtube clips, then the cosplay song 😀 But the clips, it was mad, we went crazy for keyboard cat! Of all things, ah, sometimes mob mentality is a strange thing. Somewhere in there we went crazy for a cute bunny!! Must love the cute! Must do it! Finally we saw the slap chop remix. That is crazy! It has the shamwow guy with a new product, the slap chop. Frankly I’m surprised I haven’t gone and bought one yet. LINK!


Sadly it went a bit long an kinda killed the mood. They also showed one making spam sandwiches, which was odd.

So finally we got to the massive amount of other cosplayers. Again, all great, but my highlights were: Abby from NCIS, All 9 sailor scouts, Kids playing The Riddler and Poison Ivy, GLaDOS, Karmen rider! Ho-oh, Alien (oh it was good!), Bayonetta (proving she can look awesome without huge boobs), Spirit (of course :), the Stig! A contamination guy from Monsters inc, and Rimmer from Red Dwarf with holo-virus.

So, after all that, it was time to go home. Got the train with 2 vocaloids and a Timelord, who knew Timelords took the train? Maybe he left his TARDIS somewhere. 😛

Next day my arms can out in allergy rash cos of the dagwood dog 😦

Somehow finished the bad English assignment for Monday, and back to uni. So there you go, lots of fun 😀



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April 9, 2010 at 12:22 pm (Uncategorized) (, )

Hi everyone,

so, recently, avoiding the horrible english assignment that everyone is hating, I remembered the joys of Eurovision!

I really got into it last year. I particularly liked the entries by Greece, Moldova and of course the winning entry from Norway. there were others but I can’t remember them.

with all my assessment I havent had a chance to hear all the 2010 entries yet, but im getting there. they are currently in the semi-finals, but  im finding what I like from that. so far I like Lithuania (they have cool pants), Armenia, Albania and Greece. maybe Moldova. didn’t like the Irish entry, but the entry by Latvia is amusing 😛 with lyrics like “What for do people live until they die?” and “Only Mr God knows why” I cant help but love it but feel a bit sorry for it, but thats kinda why its awesome.

I have also discovered the joys of Korean karaoke and pop music 🙂 a girl from uni tried to organise a karaoke night but, being the day before assessment was due many of the people didn’t come. to be precise, there were 3 of us. the girl who organised it, myself and another guy who I’d seen around who i thinks a bit cute .  anyway, we had sushi, which I think im actually getting used to. I tried the shiitake mushroom one, which is another big thing for me. I hate mushrooms usually but this was ok. I got some chips after tho. so, karaoke. you get ur own room and its cool 🙂 cant wait to go back. Because the other 2 ppl with me were LOTE students they pulled out a few Korean and Japanese songs, it was so fun even tho I didn’t know what was happening. ah, good times 🙂

oh, and I’ve been running on coffee for the last, hmm, few days, and its set to run a bit more >:D

but now I must go, finish this horrible assignment. ugh, I wont get it done, but I got a big weekend so I need to use the time I have wisely, unlike I have been.



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Some Stuff Happened

March 30, 2010 at 9:07 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , )

Hey hey!

So I finally finished my assignment and handed it in finally 🙂 it sucked, really bad, way under word limit, but in. Proquest is annoying tho. I sent myself some articles on friday but only got them monday morning. it’s email! it doesn’t wait for the weekend. it was too late once I got them.

unfortunately, due to exam stress and eating yeast (im allergic to yeast mum bought pizza friday, why is it so tasty) I have now come out in an itchy rash on one leg 😦 it’s so annoying!! and just on one leg!

the rpm garage is almost finished, just working out rooms. None of the shots really show the upper levels well so I mostly had to guess. screen shots are on their way! soon I promise.

does anyone remember “My best friend is an alien” otherwise known as “I was a sixth grade alien”. I cant find any footage to post, but Michael Cera is in it. I wanted to do a comparison, it would be so funny 🙂 he’s grown so much.

well, better go, stuff to do. not much else to say, cya


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March 25, 2010 at 10:19 pm (Uncategorized) (, )

Hey everyone!

I’m going quite insane! I am going to fail to submit a crucial assignment… on time! I’ll do it still, just not on time. What a start for my first assessment piece. And where am I? On my blog O.o great use of time huh.

But such is the nature of my alter ego, Fail!Sarah.

I have been working on the RPM sims and listening to the epic podcasts by “no pink spandex”. They’re good, I like ’em, but the go for ages! But, in that time I have worked out the garage layout from RPM footage and started to build it on sims. Bit proud of that, not of the time it took tho 😦

But why! Why this disobedience? Why this self-destruction? Why do I let myself do this? It’s so annoying! I am contradicting everything I know to do! grr *sigh* I think I will give up on finishing before the deadline.

Just to get it out of my head I will tell you something I realised a little while ago. Not sure if I’ve said it yet. To start, and this is disgusting, don’t say I didn’t warn you, I have had a problem with picking pimples. Before that I had a problem scratching flea bites. I didn’t make the connection till recently, but it pretty much the same thing!  I didn’t think there was a connection, I thought I managed to stop scratching, but turns out I never stopped! I want to stop but idk how 😦

And now I get distracted by the eleventh doctor promo! grr, ok, I have to get back to work. I’m  going to try to use Dr K as inspiration to keep going. See how that works.



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2 Projects of Differing Importance

March 22, 2010 at 8:34 pm (Uncategorized) (, )

Hey again,

I won’t be long, not too much to say today, working on 2 ‘projects’. As I eluded to in the title, they are quite different; one is a uni assignment, the other is beginning another Sims 3 theme game. And guess where I’ve been spending my time! I’ll tell you a bit about each project.

The assignment, 50% history one. Thats all I can say, because I have been really slack, as usual.
The themed game (which will be one of many) is Power Rangers RPM. The community will include 3 houses. The Rangers will be in the active house with Dr K. Colonal Truman and his 2 helpers will be in another. The final house will have Venjix, Tenaya, the 3 general and a grinder. I am very excited about it, but it’s taking more time than I have. I will add pics and details when I can.

But as I said, I must go, I don’t have time to write that much 😦

I will write again tomorrow night.


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